Patrick Clancy shared how he has coped with the deaths of his three children and started rebuilding his life in his first televised interview since his ex-wife Lindsay Clancy's murder trial.

The case has drawn widespread media attention, with the former labor and delivery nurse facing murder charges over the deaths of her three children โ€” 5-year-old Cora, 3-year-old Dawson and 8-month-old Callan โ€” whom she admitted killing on Jan. 24, 2023.

In an extensive interview with 60 Minutes aired on CBS News Sunday, Clancy said that at one point he "didn't think I would live to see my 35th birthday," as he struggled with grief. He said that he still dreams about his children, telling interviewer Ross Douthat, "it's like I'm lucid in those dreams."

Clancy also discussed how he met his now-wife, Dr. Rachel Danis, who also appeared in the show, and said false online conspiracy theories about his involvement in his children's deaths were "deeply harmful to the legacy of my children."

Here are the key moments from the interview.

Asked by correspondent Ross Douthat whether the couple were "starting a family" together, Danis replied, "Yeah," with Clancy adding that he "can't wait" to tell any future children child about their brothers and sister.

"I think every parent can agree, you have different relationships with your kids, but they're all your kids," he said. "And I can't wait to tell them about their brothers and sister."

Danis, a fertility doctor, married Clancy in April this year. Joining her husband for the interview, she said that she first met him at a running club in New York in January 2024.

She described finding out about his children while paying for coffee with Clancy during one of their meet-ups.

"Pat pulled out his phone to pay, and I noticed this adorable photo of children as the wallpaper," she said. "And I just asked, 'Who are those cuties?' And Pat said, 'Those are my kids.' And then I think I asked if they live in Massachusetts, and Pat said, 'They died.' And this is just at the cashier."

"I guess I had so many questions, and yet at the same time I didn't know exactly what to ask," she added.

Clancy, who was the first witness to testify at his ex-wife's murder trial, told the court that when he returned from picking up food and prescriptions, he found his three children in the basement after calling 911 for Lindsay, who had jumped from a second-floor window.

During the 60 Minutes special, he described having a panic attack mid-testimony and being put in an ambulance.

"I went to a back room, and I started having this massive traumatic panic attack," he said.

"My heart was pounding. And they put me in an ambulance. They offered me some medication, but I said, 'I โ€” I don't want it, 'cause I want to go back and I want to finish this so I can be done with this.' And I went back and I finished the testimony."

Recalling the 911 call being played in court, he said that "testifying is very difficult."

"On the second day, a lot of that was focused on the night of January 24th. We did take a break right before they played the 911 call, which I knew was gonna be just horrific."

The account rebuts what some online theorists interpreted as Clancy's stoicism on the stand, which in turn fueled conspiracy theories that he was somehow involved in the deaths of his children. These theories continued even after Clancy's lawyer warned he would take legal action against those responsible.

Asked about the impact of the conspiracy theories circulating online, Clancy said, "It's painful to see. It makes it difficult to be in public, and it's possible that some of those people, after seeing lie after lie after lie, they start to believe it, and that's what we're left with."

He said that the conspiracy theories are "deeply harmful to the legacy of my children."

"It is a huge distraction from what really matters here, which is perinatal mental health. And it's done real harm to real people, myself included but also others," he added.

While Patrick and Lindsay Clancy are no longer married, Patrick Clancy told CBS he had forgiven his ex-wife for what happened to their children.

Asked if she had ever asked for his forgiveness, Clancy said, "No. But I gave it to her."

"I saw headlines that said, you know, 'Killer Mom,' and 'Baby Murderer,' 'Monster.' And none of 'em were accurate. I believe that it was her mental illness that caused that. So I shared those words.

Lindsay Clancy has been held at a state-run hospital since 2023.

"And I think when it comes to forgiveness, I also felt that if I didn't get there, I would be eaten up inside forever," he added.

In the weeks following the tragedy, as Clancy tried to come to terms with life without his children, he discussed feeling so low that he had suicidal thoughts.

"There was a time when I โ€” I didn't think I would live to see my 35th birthday. And I was completely fine with it," he told the broadcaster.

Two of the Clancys' children โ€” Cora and Dawson โ€” were declared dead on Jan. 24, but 8-month-old Callan remained alive for a few more days after being airlifted to Boston Children's Hospital.

ย "I really thought there was a chance that Callan would live," he told 60 Minutes.

"I remember just thinking, 'Just gimme one. Just gimme one kid,' and I would raise him as best I could, and I would give him the best life I possibly could. I'd tell him about his brother and sister. And I was holding out hope for that.ย 

"Then, when I got to the hospital, I saw the doctor. I saw the look on her face, and I knew that it wasn't going to be a good prognosis."

During his final hours with Callan, Clancy said he sat and wrote tributes to each of his three children, typing with one hand while he held his baby's hand with the other. He told the program that he was afraid that if he didn't write about them, they would be forgotten.

Callan's heart kept beating for four days before "he died in my arms," Clancy said.

"I'm so grateful for those four days that I had with him. And I'm so grateful he hung on," he said.

If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, call 911, or call the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 or 1-800-273-8255 or text HOME to the Crisis Text Line at 741741.