Taylor Swift's ex said, "I'm not good at being a celebrity. But when it ended, all hell broke loose..."

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She also said, "I didn't marry the big fat movie star; I married him. And I would go back and remake that decision. I ran down the beach to him, and I would again. You can't have these three babies and so much of what we had. He's the love of my life. What am I going to do about that? He's the most brilliant person in any room, the most charismatic, the most generous. He's just a complicated guy. I always say, 'When his sun shines on you, you feel it.' But when the sun is shining elsewhere, it's cold. He can cast quite a shadow."

He continued, "It's, like, magical. There's nothing like it. So I felt that, and I just didn't want to let it go. When it was hard, I was just like, 'I want to stick this out.' So it was on again, off again, on again, off again. We were working out how to be in a relationship, how to be ourselves, who we were, in the middle of having people judge our relationship through the media. I think that really messed my head up, too. Because then, it's like trust and all this other stuff that starts messing with your mind. You're on the road. And there are beautiful women on the road. And you're just getting yourself into trouble."

When cohost Adam22 asked her why she and Wiz didn't give their relationship another shot, Amber said, "Now he has a girlfriend [Aimee Aguilar]. He's been with her for four, five years, and she's a sweetheart. She's amazing. ... You gotta let go of your ego and not think that this other person is going to take away the love that your child has for you."

Previously, Amber told the podcast Sofia With an F, "Those feelings aren't the same anymore, but I love him like my family now. I don't know if you'll ever be over that, but as far as, like, an intimate relationship, yes. You still, like, feel it in your heart and your soul that, like, that was your soulmate. But you get older and understand that we're much better as coparents and friends."

Later in the episode, she said, "I want to be single for the rest of my life. ... I don't want to share my house or my life with anyone. I don't want anyone around my kids. I don't want to have sex… No, ew. ...  I'm fine with being by myself, too. ... I'm very happy to not share my bed with anyone."

In a confessional, Kris added, "When I got divorced, Robert and I became best friends. We talked on the phone all day long, helped each other through things all the time. And I did have regrets. I thought, 'Wow, what was I thinking?'"

She continued, "As a matter of fact, I don't remember too much about my marriage to him, except it was one big, friggin' awful mistake. I knew it before we were married and didn't know how to get out of it."

They continued, "Our journey together has been a ride of both ups & downs, but it's a journey that neither of us would have chosen to take with anyone else. We truly have so much love & respect for each other. We both have grown tremendously within this relationship; we have shared so many beautiful memories and moments, and we also look forward to see the amazing futures we have ahead of us individually. As if 2020 hasn't already been extremely grueling and challenging to us all we wanted to mutually speak on this now to keep this energy in 2020 and not take this energy into 2021. We would really appreciate your most sincere prayers and to respect our privacy at this time as we deal with the reality of where we are."

She continued, "I would never tell somebody to make that decision when they're that emotional, but of course, I wasn't talking to someone that genuinely would be for marriage or for reconciliation. That's no slight to my attorney. At the time when I was on the phone and I made that decision, I was livid. I was emotional. If I'm that emotional and I'm that hurt and I'm on that level, if it's misguided and misdirected, it could go in a bad direction. The truth about the matter is that if I had different people in my ear at that time, I would not have made that decision."

He continued, "If you had people in your ear at the time, they must be still in your ear because you still trying to get $20,000 a month for a 5-year-old. You make $160,000 a year on your own. This is all a game. You're clout chasing. ... You're playing on women who are single mothers. You're playing on women who are actually in abusive relationships that are toxic, dark and dysfunctional."

Nikki told the Better Together with Maria Menounos podcast that she didn't want John to have kids with her then "regret" it. She said, "Even in the end, when he was willing to give me kids, I could just tell it's not what we wanted. And that's really, like, you know, what pushed me in the end, was like, if I'm going to force someone to be a father."

Previously, he'd told Ryan Seacrest that he couldn't see them working together.

She added, "But at the same time, I knew that having them be 50 percent of their time with [Peter], their father, was absolutely the best thing for them. And, whatever I was dealing with, you know, that part of me that wanted to have them more was just me being selfish and thinking about myself, because it hurts so bad when they would leave."

She continued, "Then I got in there, and shit changed and switched, and it was like, 'Who are you?' I'm sure he asked who am I as well. But if you have that love, that foundation, then you can weather a storm that you wouldn't necessarily weather… I would have stayed a little longer if my heart was involved. It wasn't there."

When host Dax Shepard asked if she'd forgiven herself, she replied, "You know, it's been so long, like I feel like enough time has gone by... I think enough mutual friends have been like, everybody kind of forgave everybody for what went down."

Mila and Macaulay's reps didn't respond to Refinery29's request for comment at the time.